June 22, 2012

• easy button (snore)

  I need an easy button and training to use it.  You do know the Staples commercial about the easy button?  Or is it the other office supply place?  Whatever.  Because sometimes my inability to take the easy way out is annoying.  Not saying I’m an overachiever or anything. That would be a lie. However, allowing myself too many options means that I sometimes sit here completely incapable of deciding anything because I debate every option instead of hitting the easy button.  The easy way is not always the right way.  Sometimes it is too.  So here I sit.  About to bore the crap out of you. Ok, I warned you.

  I had yet another piece of work to do for class this week.  I had to look at two journals and write about stuff.  I finished it last night, but was frustrated because the second journal wasn’t worth the paper it was printed on.  So I debated with myself about whether to just call it done, because I followed the assignment.  Hello easy button.  But, no.  I decided to look at the 3rd journal that I picked up with the other two and did the assignment about that one too.  Yes, it probably makes me look like a brown noser, big fat whatever.  But the articles in this one were interesting and helpful and potentially useful to another thing I’m debating.  And I always love a connection.  Because there is a piece of something that makes me think maybe I have had a direction delivered to me.

  By the way, my odometer was at 70707 this morning when I got in the car.  7 is my favorite number.  And I heard “Carrie Anne” on the radio.  That’s not my name or anything, but still.  I sometimes think that these little coincidences are a message from the universe.  What the message is, I have no idea. Have a song.

  I’m debating my little stairway to heaven project as well.  I found words to paint and have done so and like how it looks (well enough).  And I could call this done, urethane it, and be ready for my wild people to come home tomorrow evening and not wreck it.  However, I had intended to get carried away with it and I haven’t yet.  So do I hit the easy button (or as my dad says KISS-”keep it simple stupid”) or do I continue with my quest for crazy.  I can’t decide.

  The biggest thing is that I should already have a big honking paper topic and I hadn’t thought about it much before this week when the head of the graduate department spelled it out that I need to have the thing written by October.  So maybe I oughtta have a clue what I’m going to do.  (insert utter panic)  And I think there is an easy button here.  I think most students in my program write about the reading camp that I’m involved with in one short week (which would be another reason for panic).  But.  If so many people in the program write about that, it offends my sensibilities to be included in the everyone club.  BORING.  They do that because it’s probably the best/only option for them.  It’s not the only option for me, because I’m a grown up.  (I’ve been in the real world. sorry.)  So I could look at the extensive array of papers I’ve written in the past year and do something with those topics or those papers to fit the big honking paper guidelines.  Maybe.  Or I could take a summer camp that I’m doing later this summer and create something really spectacular with it.  I co-teaching with a loony friend of mine. We’re combining art and writing to make books and it is just going to be so incredibly cool that I’m drooling already.  I guarantee no one else in the program will have done anything like this.  And maybe this is what I’m leaning towards.  However, if this is what I’m going to do, I have a ton of background work to do and I have to plan IN ADVANCE (which goes against everything I believe in) and I have to get permissions and I have to prepare materials and all kinds of hoo hoo stuff that I gotta do.  Including talking to my adviser to see if he thinks the idea is worthwhile to begin with.  And all of this I gotta do having completely wasted the first two easy weeks of my summer, because my summer goes nuts starting next Monday.  So I’m thinking the easy button here, rather than the crazy button.  But…

  And all this thinking is giving me a headache.

  We’re going to see Rock of Ages tonight.  I’ve heard it’s fun for people who are old.  I’ve also heard it bombed.  I’m old and I like to sing.  I think this might be obnoxious. (Kinda like when I took my girlies to see Mamma Mia the movie.)  But I can’t decide if we should go to the 5:00 showing or the 7:30 showing. 

  I’m wondering if a cootie catcher or a ouijja board might come in handy.  Or maybe the magic 8 ball.

   

   

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